After lifetime of trauma, Palmyra woman 'finally ready to invest in this life I never thought I wanted.'
Behind every phone call to LCCM is a story. This is Amy’s.
Amy was physically and verbally abused by her first stepmother. She and her siblings were sequestered in their bedrooms for three years where they studied and ate food on the floor.
They wasn’t allowed outside to play. She got lost in books and lost in her mind as her only means of escape.
She was given 30 minutes to eat with a timer put in front of her.
“I was beaten if I didn’t finish in time,” she said.
She was given huge portions and sometimes inedible meals.
“I figured out I could stop in the bathroom on my way to take my tray back to the kitchen and scrape my food into the toilet,” she said. “It began as a means of survival around age 9 and it became a lifelong battle with anorexia.
Though her stepmother eventually left and the physical abuse stopped, a new form of abuse began when her grandfather began molesting her at age 11.
This is when she made her first suicide attempt.
Amy was unsuccessful in her attempt but told herself that she didn’t want to be alive past the age of 18.
Her father remarried, and shortly afterward Amy was reunited with her mother at age 13. However, she didn’t feel safe at her mother’s house because different men would stay the night.
From age 16 on, Amy lived with people she babysat for, coworkers, and even lived in her car.
She became increasingly more self-destructive as she approached her cutoff age of 18. Already anorexic, she began exercising for hours every day and cutting herself.
After coming down with a stomach illness, a teacher noticed Amy’s absence and began to see all the signs of a mental health crisis. Amy was admitted to an inpatient psychiatric hospital.
“That saved my life,” she said.
Though she continued to struggle, Amy eventually married and became a stepmother herself – something she always feared due to her own childhood experience. But her fears were alleviated when Amy connected with the child and loved her as her own.
But six years into her marriage, Amy and her husband divorced.
“So I ran,” she said.
And she ran from Texas to Gettysburg, Pennsylvania.
It was here she decided to reinvent herself as a singer.
She found much success in Pennsylvania, performing with her band as the opening act for several major recording artists, seeing her name and face on billboards and even writing and recording her own songs.
“To everyone around me, it looked like I really had things together and was on my way to big things,” she said. “But in truth, it was all a persona. I got to pretend all those bad things had happened to someone else. But the real Amy underneath that persona was drowning. I sabotaged my own success.”
Amy was raped in 2005. Shortly after that her mother died. After the traumatic events, Amy was hospitalized at age 33 at what was then known as Philhaven, today known as Wellspan Philhaven, a comprehensive behavioral and mental health facility headquartered in West Cornwall Township.
“They educated me, they ministered to me, they believed in me, and they refused to give up on me,” she said.
It was at Philhaven where Amy was connected to outside services that helped her rebuild her life.
Philhaven arranged for her to stay at Lebanon Rescue Mission’s Agape Family Shelter until an apartment opened through a housing program between Philhaven, the Housing Authority and Mental Health and the Lebanon County Mental Health/Intellectual Disabilities/Early Intervention program.
She was able to utilize LCCM’s food pantry and Emergency Food Assistance Program. Recovering from anorexia meant her body changed and her clothing became too small. She couldn’t afford new clothing, so she used LCCM’s clothing bank as well.
“I was embarrassed and ashamed to need their help,” she said. “But at LCCM I wasn’t treated like the lose cause I believed I was. I was treated with such kindness. Like a real person worthy of their time and effort.”
LCCM met Amy’s basic needs, which was foundational for her to address other areas of her life in recovery.
She used a few of Wellspan Philhaven’s outpatient programs. The Office of Vocational Rehabilitation offered her assistance in education. Compeer, a nonprofit that focuses on friendship and support for people living with mental illness, provided a sense of community in Lebanon where Amy didn’t know many people, and SARCC provided specialized counseling for the sexual abuse she endured. When she moved to Palmyra, she was able to use the Caring Cupboard food pantry as well.
Today, Amy continues to work hard in therapy, learning new ways of thinking and coping. She still has a strong relationship with her stepdaughter, and has built a strong support network. She continues to rely on her professional supports, though to less necessity. She gives back in ways she can through ministry, volunteerism, and activism.
“God showed me I am capable of having a happy and productive life that I don’t have to give up,” she said. “I don’t know what the future holds for me, but at 50, I’m finally ready to invest in this life I never thought I wanted.”
Behind every phone call to Lebanon County Christian Ministries is a story.
On the surface, Tiffany Wade’s story was straight forward. Her apartment building was being sold, and she found herself with a temporary need for shelter for a few weeks.
But there was a lengthy journey leading up to her stay at LCCM’s FRESH Start Emergency Shelter & Resource Center, one she believes God orchestrated for a larger purpose: to offer hope by sharing her life’s story.
'I lost every family member'
On Jan. 17, Tiffany is looking forward to marking a milestone: five years of uninterrupted sobriety from drugs and alcohol.
It’s surreal to think about, she says, as she reflected on her life in FRESH Start’s resource center in September.
Tiffany has had more near-death experiences than she can count. She’s lost most of her family members to drugs and spent years of her life in and out of jail, drug rehabs and halfway houses.
“My mother was one of the first people that I used with,” she said. “She taught me how to use a syringe and prostitute, and all of that.”
During one of her prison sentences in 2011, Tiffany received the news just three weeks before her release that her mother – her last surviving family member – had died of an overdose.
“I’ve been using since a very young age. I lost every family member except for my uncle who is still actively using back home. I lost my mother, my grandmother and my grandfather,” she said.
Not only was she grieving the loss of her mother, but she had to prepare for her release.
She was accepted into Jubilee Ministries in Lebanon in 2011.
“I can see back now in hindsight it was definitely a divine act of my higher power because I got sober in Lebanon,” she said. “A lot of people told me ‘why would you choose to come to Lebanon, but I really didn’t choose Lebanon. This is what was chosen for me, it was the path for me.”
Tiffany was doing well in Jubilee and graduated after six months. She was presented with an opportunity to possibly work for the ministry, but a couple of months later she relapsed.
'I don't want to live that way anymore'
She left the program and used the money she had saved to rent an apartment in Lebanon. But her addiction began to consume her life.
She ended up in a cycle of addiction and prison through 2016. During her last stay in jail she said she got down on her knees and prayed.
“The reality of it was, I was in my early 30s, and I was homeless, I had no family members left I was strung out on drugs even in jail, so I said to Him simply, ‘God, if I can’t get this right, just take me,” she said. “I don’t want to live that way anymore.”
That was the last time she was ever incarcerated.
Road to recovery
After her release from prison, she spent some time at a Salvation Army. She came back to Lebanon in early 2017 but had nowhere to go.
“I got dropped off at a Turkey Hill, and I can remember looking left, and then right, and I was like, oh man, what am I going to do?” she said. “So, I stood there for a minute, and I cried, but I remembered I had this piece of paper in my bag from an alcoholics anonymous meeting on 10th Street. I have one lady’s number on this list and said if I ever needed help to call her.”
The woman picked her up and drove her to an AA meeting.
“They told me I never have to drink or use again, and I didn’t believe that because I lost everybody,” she said. “I had been drinking and using my whole entire life. I’ve used IV drugs, I I’ve smoked crack, I ran for days until my body shut down…I just didn’t think I’d make it out alive,” she said.
Once she entered recovery and began working the 12 steps of recovery, she says her life began to come together.
She became a facilitator at a local AA group, and for the next four years had worked on rebuilding her life. She got an apartment in Lebanon, she was working, and developed a good financial track record. But in 2021, the apartment building where she was living was sold and she had nowhere to go.
A fresh start
In the meantime, she needed somewhere to stay in August 2021, and that’s when FRESH Start entered the picture.
“I was a little discouraged in the beginning, like, how am I homeless after all these years of recovery? I’m not really financially strapped. I was just a little discouraged,” she said. “But when I came through here, they were just so kind and I was like, OK, God, maybe this is the next step I have to take. Just stay humble, keep going, and don’t get discouraged.”
And then FRESH Start staff suggested she talk to a staff member to tell her story.
“I was asking God every day…’What’s my purpose in all of this? Ok, so maybe my purpose is to be able to share my story even through this program to help others know that this is possible. I truly believe this was the link. It was like a blessing in disguise,” she said.
“God is real. And if it wasn’t for him, I would not be sober and these things in my life would not be happening,” she said.
In 2021, not only did she obtain her driver’s license for the first time and bought a car, but she began looking for homes. Though she was prepared to buy a home early into her stay at FRESH Start, the sale fell through, and she spent more time in the shelter than anticipated.
She is now renting temporarily until God reveals the next chapter. Until then, Tiffany feels blessed to be able to celebrate five years of sobriety in January.
“You can change your life,” she said. “You can search for God and He will help you on a journey that is beyond your wildest dreams.”
Want to make a big impact in your community? We have unique volunteer opportunities in our shelter.
In January, the FRESH Start Emergency Shelter & Resource Center will be transitioning from the hotel to a single location for the overnight shelter.
We are in need of individuals who want to volunteer to support the shelter operations. We will need many hands to cover these positions 365 days a year.
The four needs are:
1. Welcome and check-in: this role will be responsible for welcoming our guests, doing the nightly registration, and receiving the guests' nightly vouchers. We need two volunteers for this each night. Arrival is 8 p.m. and ending time is about 9:30 p.m.
2. Safety check: this role ensures guests' personal items are placed into their storage bins for the night. This volunteer will do a visual inspection of bags and ensure guests are compliant with shelter rules. Arrival is 8 p.m. and ending time is about 9:30 p.m.
3. Refreshments: This volunteer will be available in the snack area to replenish snacks, socialize with our guests, and place any approved items needing refrigeration in a refrigerator. Arrival is 8 p.m. and ending time is about 9:30 p.m.
4. Overnight: these volunteers can fill one of the above positions and then stay overnight or can volunteer for just the overnight shift. Arrival is no later than 9 p.m. (unless filling another role). A volunteer rest area is available and responsibilities include ensuring guests remain indoors and in the assigned sleeping area. Additionally, this position will conduct lights out and wake guests at 6:30 a.m. It is not required this volunteer remain awake for the entire night, but be ready to support any guests' emergency needs. We need two volunteers per night for this position.
There is a short online training, which is required prior to volunteering. Also, a short knowledge quiz must be completed as well. The link to the training and quiz will be sent via email once you register.
To register as a volunteer, please complete the application at: https://forms.gle/E7ScMRP4oURuPz7G9
Once you complete the training and knowledge quiz, you will be sent further directions to complete the application for a background check (at no cost to the volunteer).
In April, ‘Maria’ arrived at FRESH Start Emergency Shelter & Resource Center crying in pain because she felt hopeless.
By July, she is leaving the shelter crying tears of joy because God had answered her prayers for a home.
“You have to have that faith,” she said. ‘You have to humble yourself and stop being mad. You have to have a goal. I never thought I’d have that support.”
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Ten years ago, ‘Maria’ said she had everything – well paying jobs, a house, a car and nice material things, but something felt wrong.
“I’d get so angry with the world,” she said. “I was getting sick, and I didn’t know it.”
‘Maria’ was diagnosed a short time later with multiple sclerosis.
Multiple sclerosis (MS) is an unpredictable disease of the central nervous system that disrupts the flow of information within the brain, and between the brain and body, according to the National Multiple Sclerosis Society.
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Symptoms can include tremors, difficulty walking, mood swings, uncomfortable tingling and burning, difficulty speaking, vision problems, balance issues, fatigue, urinary issues, and cognitive issues.
‘Maria’ experienced many of these symptoms, and eventually had to stop working and had to rely on Social Security disability benefits.
But as her physical health deteriorated, she felt her spiritual health was, too.
“Here, I’m realizing I’m not going to church. I’m not praying, I’m not wrestling with God anymore,” she said. “I was just giving up.”
She had moved in with relatives over the years.
Most recently, she could no longer stay with a relative, which left her with little options.
She called the Lebanon County Assistance Office and they gave her three phone numbers. One of those phone numbers was for FRESH Start. When she called, she spoke to Amanda, LCCM’s shelter support staff member.
“I said ‘I’m disabled, I don’t have anywhere to go and I need help.’” she said.
When she arrived at LCCM’s FRESH start, she was thankful for shelter but says she asked God why this was happening.
“I worked so hard in my life, why am I here?” she said. “I said God, please, I need positive people and that push.”
Fresh Start staff encouraged ‘Maria,’ as she applied for apartments and offered comfort to her in her time of need. This resulted in some much-needed rest.
“I slept like I haven’t in months. I’m being fed, and I’m doing what I’m supposed to do. I’m following the rules,” she said.
Still, ‘Maria’ struggled to find a home. Due to the shortage of affordable housing units in Lebanon County, it was difficult to find an apartment.
“I said, ‘but God, what else do you want? I’m not questioning it, but just give me that light, give me that hope.”
She kept turning to Psalm 17 for comfort.
“Protect me, guide me and take me in your wings,” she prayed. “Light that path.”
She said every time she got defeated, LCCM staff encouraged her and cheered her on, reminding her to have faith.
She had sent a text to her friends up and down the East Coast who prayed hard for her as well.
Then, in July, her prayers were answered.
“They said, ‘congratulations, we’re giving you the apartment,” she said. “I can’t stop crying because I’m so overwhelmed with joy.”
Maria credits God, prayer and LCCM staff for helping her, and encourages anyone struggling with homelessness to reach out.
“I had to go through this because I’m just a little grain, you know. I’m not the only one,” she said. “I would encourage anybody who has been abused, who stopped using drugs, who are needy and have their kids to get themselves together and come here because not only are you going to get people who are spiritual and have that bond with God and only have kind words, but you can come here and get yourself together. This is where it’s at.
I said to God, I need a fresh start,” she said. “And look, I’m here.”
LCCM Executive Director
“Out of clutter, find simplicity. From discord, find harmony. In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.” – Albert Einstein
At this point we have been operating LCCM in COVID mode since March 13, 2020. It is hard to believe the last 16 months have passed and our operations did not once shut down. The community support in both prayers and financial blessings has been humbling.
We experienced significant increases in food distribution, then a significant slow down in food distribution. We also experienced an increase in those receiving the free noon meal, and extended stays in our homeless shelter due to limited housing stock in our community.
While the pandemic brought loss, grief and unimaginable challenges, we used this period of time at LCCM as an opportunity to reflect on the services provided in our homeless shelter and wanted to identify ways to enhance those services. This was an unexpected opportunity to rethink what we do. Is there a better way? Will changes be supported by our community of churches, private supporters, and our volunteers?
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The last 16 months have provided clarity on the need for a physical shelter, a single location where our guests are engaged, services are provided, programs are delivered, and individualized growth of each guest can occur. This location must be designed in a way to provide a safe environment for each guest who stays at our shelter.
This is why our Board of Directors recently established a shelter committee that will be evaluating the feasibility of a physical location and establishing how our program can serve our guests most effectively. There is a lot of work to be done as we are in the early stages and are praying for direction and guidance as we seek to serve our community.
Our guests have been staying in a hotel/motel setting for the last 16-months. Prior to the pandemic, our shelter operated in a congregate “cold” shelter model for seven years. The physical location of the shelter rotated every two weeks among a dozen churches throughout the year. Each host church was tasked with having six to eight volunteers per night to welcome and register guests, to minister to them, and have, at minimum, two volunteers spend the night with our guests. This was a huge lift for each church over the years and the commitment by our community of churches is amazing. We also know how difficult it has been at times for churches to secure the volunteer commitment. BUT we also know how much of an impact the volunteering has made on many individuals. We are committed to continuing to provide volunteer opportunities regardless of what the future holds.
While we work on gaining clarity on what the future looks like for FRESH Start, one thing is clear – homelessness is an issue in Lebanon County. This year, FRESH Start has averaged 17 guests each night. Our shelter is a family shelter, and at any given time 50 percent of our guests are children. Without turning this article into a detailed account about adverse childhood experiences or other trauma, just take a minute to think about the impact on a child’s life when they are unsure about their next meal, where they will sleep at night, or, when they enter our shelter, what it is like living with 15-20 other individuals while their home moves every two weeks.
Is a roof over our guests heads enough? Well, it is certainly a start. But what other factors must be considered? We start with basic needs being met. Do our guests have food? Do our guests have clothing? From there we begin to ensure our guests acclimate to a new normal and identify areas of opportunity to grow as a person. Are our guests working? Is it a life-sustaining wage? What factors have led to our guests’ homelessness?
Homelessness is often hidden and not found in plain sight. The experiences we observe in our FRESH Start program find most individuals who seek our assistance have been leveraging relationships with friends and family and eventually exhaust their resources and have no other place to turn. Occasionally we have guests who have been sheltered in their car or have been camping without any plans for long- term housing. Does this mean we do not have a homelessness issue in our community? Simply stated, no it does not! Our community struggles with homelessness on different levels. For example, data collected for homelessness by the Education of Children and Youth Experiencing Homelessness (ECYEH) show a significant number of homeless children. The 2019-2020 report from ECYEH notes 727 children were identified as being homeless in Lebanon County Schools. Homelessness, for the purpose of the above data, is defined as individuals who lack a fixed, regular, and adequate nighttime residence. This does not mean each of these children are in a shelter or on the streets.
LCCM is committed to providing shelter for individuals in our community. We continue to work through these uncertain times, but we are excited to have some clarity until at least December of 2021. Recently, funding through the state via Lebanon Community Action Partnership was designated to LCCM to financially support our shelter in the hotel/motel environment. What this means for LCCM is our team can focus our efforts on case management of our guests and ensuring funding to shelter our guests through the rest of the year. It also provides our board and leadership the opportunity to plan to answer the question: “What is next?”
As we enter one of our biggest fundraisers for FRESH Start this July and August, we just wanted to take this opportunity to reflect and look toward the future. There have been many lessons learned, modifications and on-the-fly adjustments made, and incredible partnerships which allowed us to continue supporting those experiencing homelessness in Lebanon County. Please help us make this fundraiser a success. There are numerous opportunities to support FRESH Start’s operations. These opportunities include group activities, a barbecue meal, a poverty simulator event and peer-to-peer fundraising. It can be as simple as a couple clicks on your Facebook page.
At Lebanon County Christian Ministries, our mission is to share the love of Jesus by providing emergency food, clothing, shelter, and guidance toward personal sustainability to anyone in need.
We also believe that a community that learns together, grows together. That's why we are excited to invite you to join Lebanon County Christian Ministries' new book discussion group!
We will kick off this new endeavor with 'The Gospel Next Door' by Marty Troyer.
Here's everything you need to know:
We have 10 slots available for this group and we intend to meet weekly.
We have not set a start date yet, but we are looking at starting sometime in May.
Once we know who signs up for the group, we will then contact the group to provide options for a meeting time that will work for the majority of people each week.
After we select a date, and you are confident that date works for you, we would urge you to order the book.
If you need financial assistance, please contact Andrea at Andrea@lccm.us.
If you're interested in signing up, please click the link below, then click on 'sign up' and then 'submit.' We will be in touch once the group is filled. The link to purchase the book is also below.
Book Discussion group sign up link (ignore the date listed on this form. The sign up form required a date in order to create the link). Again, a start date determined once a group is formed.
Where to purchase the book
Amazon: Available on Kindle, paperback and hard copy (new and used)
Barnes & Noble: Paperback, Nook Book
More about the book
"As Christians, we pray for God's kingdom to come on earth as it in heaven. But what does that even mean? Would we recognize God's kingdom if it moved in next door?
Learn to see God's work in your neighborhood, city, and the world and learn how to join it. With stories from his own city of Houston, Texas, author Marty Troyer introduces a theology of place that empowers us to truly see the work of God where we live, work, and play. The Gospel Next Door unpacks the gospel through the lenses of following Jesus, making peace, and overcoming injustice. Those seeking to connect more deeply with the world that God so loved will find compelling stories and practical ideas for healing brokenness and imagining new life. Start living out the kingdom of God here and now."
This is a new venture for us, so we appreciate your grace as we navigate this first foray into the world of book discussion groups! If you have any questions, please contact Andrea Gillhoolley at Andrea@lccm.us
When Sarah was a child, she and her six siblings grew up in a home with no running water.
She remembers having to use an outhouse if she needed to use the bathroom and, to keep warm, she and her siblings would stoke the coal stove that heated the family’s home.
As an adult, she found herself struggling financially again after the divorce from her first husband.
She was a young mother of three boys and found herself in need of public assistance and unemployment compensation in the late 1980s.
What does food insecurity look like in Lebanon County?
This helped her save for a vehicle - but she had to first obtain a driver’s license.
“I learned to drive when I was 36!” she said. With transportation, she could now work to support her boys.
“It was tough, but I did it,” she said. “I went to work at Burger King. I would get up early and go. My oldest son was 12, so he watched his two younger brothers.”
The money being brought in between assistance, her job and child support just wasn’t enough to cover the basic cost of living, so she turned to Lebanon County Christian Ministries a few times to help provide groceries for her family.
“It helped me spread my food bill,” she said. “I used it just a few times, just when I got down…It’s nothing to be ashamed of. Everybody needs a hand up every now and then.”
Sarah eventually attended Lebanon County Career and Technology Center in the late 1980s and was featured in local news articles for being the only adult in her class and winning a bronze medal in a cooking competition.
She received a degree in culinary arts and became a cook at Cedar Haven, but would go on to switch careers. Sarah went on to make high performance motorcycle tires for Good Year but found her true calling as a certified nursing assistant, and now works at Juniper Village.
She and several residents graciously donated to Lebanon County Christian Ministries recently, something she says she was happy to do decades later to help those who find themselves in the same scenario she was in more than 30 years ago.
Her advice to people struggling is to accept help.
“It’s out there,” she said. “You need to look for it, but don’t be ashamed about it. Just go and get the help because it could end up in more problems if you don’t.”
April is National Volunteer Month. We are celebrating our volunteers by telling their stories!
Kathy and Ken Wall worked with other volunteers to fill emergency food orders on a January afternoon in the food pantry at Lebanon County Christian Ministries.
While the married couple are relatively newer volunteers, they bring 20 years’ experience of adventurous missionary work and dedicated volunteerism to LCCM.
And since the beginning, they say God has drawn them toward working in crisis situations and humanitarian aid. So, it was a natural step when they began volunteering at LCCM, a ministry that provides emergency food, clothing and shelter, during the pandemic.
Their love of volunteerism and mission work began when Kathy went on a missions trip through their church to Haiti in 2001. Both she and Ken began fundraising each year that she planned to return to Haiti. While living in Manheim, Lancaster County, they held a yard sale, plant sale and bake sale that made over $4,000 in under five hours.
While they loved the missions work in Haiti, an opportunity presented itself for the couple to do missions work in Guatemala.
“Our church asked if we would be interested. They said, ‘we know you have a heart for Haiti, but would you consider going to Guatemala?”
The work would be intense. They would oversee a warehouse for Orphan Resources International for three years, which meant they’d have to sell their home in Manheim. It was a major commitment, but one that they knew had God’s blessing.
“We didn’t even have our house on the market and it sold,” Ken said. “It just sold and we didn’t even have it listed! It was just amazing how it all worked out and everything just fell into place.”
Their son was just about to graduate high school, so friends offered to take care of him until he graduated so they could move and get trained in Guatamala. After his graduation, their son joined them for two years.
A large part of their responsibility was purchasing food, receiving donations that came from the United States, sorting food and finally delivering it to 50 orphanages.
But they always knew there was very real danger.
“There was a lot of drug cartels and so forth,” Ken said. “We had known other missionary friends there…we knew a few people who were either shot or stabbed or robbed or something of that nature.”
There were armed guards at most stores and, as a driver, Ken would have to visit areas with high crime rates.
“Our Guatemalan friends would ask us not to go there,” Kathy said. “Our response to them was if we could trust that God would protect us here (United Stats), why wouldn’t he protect us there? We have to believe he will protect us everywhere we go.”
The beauty of Guatemala outweighed fear.
They remember stopping at one orphanage and where a teen girl with down syndrome loved swinging, but did not have access to one at the orphanage where she resided.
Ken drew up the plans to create a bench swing and enlisted his friends to help pre-cut the pieces. When they arrived at the orphanage, they set the pieces on the ground as they got ready to assemble it.
“I had the bench part made and we sat that on the ground,” he said. “She was so excited about this swing that she went over and sat on the bench while it was on the ground.”
Kathy added, “There wasn’t a dry eye in the place. It was so beautiful.”
The couple eventually moved to Melbourne, Florida after their time in Guatemala ended. Their next mission was yet another God moment, Kathy said. And it all started with a pumpkin sale at their church.
It was an unusually hot for autumn in Florida and the church’s pumpkins were starting to rot. Instead of letting the pumpkins go to waste, they instead donated them to a monkey sanctuary.
Later, there were pictures of these monkeys eating and playing on the pumpkins hanging on the church wall. As Kathy looked at the pictures, she couldn’t help but notice a flyer for Daily Bread, Inc. a nonprofit that provides emergency food and shelter. She and Ken decided to volunteer in the warehouse.
“When we would go to the warehouse, we felt like we were in Guatemala,” they said. “The street wasn’t paved, it was full of potholes. We thought, ‘wow, we’re in Guatemala again!”
When they moved back to Pennsylvania, they decided to settle in Lebanon County.
They knew they were following God’s calling again when they contacted LCCM.
“it just seems like every time we tried to do something, it’s just like God blessed it and I think that really is the lesson in life, for us. Don’t be afraid to do something,” Kathy said. “To set out and do something good. It’s always an adventure.”
From health care to food, this mother-daughter volunteer duo at LCCM know how to handle an emergency
April is National Volunteer Month. We want to celebrate our volunteers by telling their stories!
In her career in the emergency services field, Dorlee Kreitzer knew how handle an emergency.
So when she retired from the Pennsylvania State Police after years as a police communications operator and instructor, she came to Lebanon County Christian Ministries to volunteer her time to serve people who were experiencing a different kind of emergency.
A year later, her daughter, Nicole Kreitzer, an EMT with First Aid and Safety Patrol, would join her to help service people in need of emergency food, clothing and shelter.
“As an EMT, an emergency is life or death,” Nicole said. “They have a situation happening now that if we don’t fix, it could kill them. Whereas when there’s an emergency here (at LCCM), if we don’t help them it doesn’t mean they will die today, but they could have a long-term issue if we don’t help them today.”
As an emergency dispatcher, Dorlee heard her share of heartbreaking pleas for help over the phone for everything from medical emergencies to domestic violence, overdoses and car crashes.
Over her long career she served as an EMT, firefighter and dispatcher for Lebanon city and state police, and served as a dispatch instructor.
So when she started at LCCM nearly a decade ago, she had one request.
“I had spent 26 years listening to people’s problems, and I don’t want to do that anymore,” she recalled telling the volunteer trainer. “I said, I think I want to be put in the warehouse away from people.”
But Dorlee said things didn’t work out that way, and God had other plans for bringing her to LCCM. Plans that involved – you guessed it- listening to people’s problems.
She started out in the food pantry, where she interacted with guests who came to pick up their emergency food orders. A need opened up for an intake specialist twice a week who would interview guests in need of food and clothing, but staff were having a difficult time finding a volunteer to fill the position. Dorlee offered to do it temporarily until they could find someone else.
She turned to Nicole and laughed, saying, “well, that ended up being permanent!”
She interviewed people for years and found out about their employment situation, the bills they owed, debt, the relational issues they faced, as well as their health issues, transportation woes and other obstacles. Some problems were out of their control, but others were self made, she said. And she struggled finding the balance between being tough and being loving. After spending her career in emergency services, she said she had become callous – not because she wanted to, but because she had to do the job.
“In all fairness to everyone involved in emergency services, you have to have thick skin because to deal with the death, to try to get someone out of a car who is injured, or just helping someone who can’t breath …when someone says ‘please help me’ you have to have thick skin because otherwise you’re not going to make it through,” she said. “So when I came here, I was callous and didn’t want to be – and I think God brought me here to soften my heart. Maybe I was brought here to soften my heart and realize I could still be tough, but no longer callous.”
Nicole agrees, and said she and her mother both learned life lessons at LCCM and have grown in their Christian faith thanks to their church and their time volunteering.
Nicole said she has learned to not judge people without speaking to them. She gave an example of how a guest showed up with seven children to received emergency food. As it turns out, the woman who came took in a friend’s four children and was temporarily taking care of all these children by herself.
“When they came in here the one little girl, she was about 4 years old, they had all this food. Now think about how much food this was. And out of all the food that she was most excited about, she said, ‘there’s milk!’” Nicole said, looking up as if she were talking to God and said “I am so sorry!”
Nicole also said the friendships she has made at LCCM over the years have been crucial to her life. Two years into her time here, she was diagnosed with a benign brain tumor that grew to the size of a golf ball, and staff visited her at home as she recuperated.
Since then, Nicole had been able to share her testimony about how she was able to resume a normal life just six weeks after surgery. She has been reminded at LCCM that there are people who may be struggling more, and that no matter where she is, she can share her experience with others.
“There are testimonies all around us,” Dorlee chimed in. She gave two examples. Dorlee sat in the waiting room at Hershey Medical Center years ago while Nicole underwent surgery to remove the tumor. An employee could tell Dorlee was distraught, so she tapped her on the shoulder and said she too has a brain tumor, and that it’s inoperable.
“And she said ‘but it will be OK.’ It was just one of those things. God gives you testimonies everywhere.”
The other example was when a woman came to LCCM for an emergency food order. She told Dorlee that she was diagnosed with cancer and all she wanted to do was go back to work. She had asked if LCCM had any Ensure, a protein drink that was too expensive for the woman to afford.
“And for some reason or another,” Dorlee said, ‘we had just gotten an entire case of Ensure that morning…we just piled her up with this Ensure because we don’t give it away to too many people. Those are the kinds of things to me that I think God brought me here for. Just to show me that no matter how hard life gets, there’s always someone who has it a little worse…this is my happy place.”
For Christians, Lent is a time of repentance, self-examination, fasting and preparation for the coming of Easter. Lent can also be a time of choosing to focus beyond ourselves and sharing our treasures, time and story with others. We invite you to share your hope and faith in Jesus by sharing your testimony by participating in LCCM's community project called 'Rescue Story.'
Click here to share yours, and then check out Bill's story below.
I was raised as a child and baptized at Ebenezer EUB Church.
I stopped attending when I was about 11 years old, (my sister and I used to walk from my grandparent's house).
I continued reading my bible, provided by my Sunday School, one column per night.
I struggled internally with low self-esteem and shyness as a youth and young man. Nobody knew it; everything seemed great on the outside.
I met my wife Kathy when I was 18. I had trouble accepting that someone could love me as much as her. I am certain that God put her in my life as part of his plan.
I started attending Trinity Lutheran when I became engaged to Kathy.
My dad died suddenly when I was 20 years old, which was shortly after our engagement and 7 months before our planned wedding. My family and I had no pastor to turn to, so I called Kathy’s pastor, Rev. Wilson Hoyer, who accompanied me throughout the overnight hours as I painfully notified my grandparents, uncle, and close family friends about my dad’s sudden, unexpected passing. Pastor Hoyer continued supporting my family in the time following.
After attending church regularly for about three years and being witnessed to by friends at work, and mentored by church members, I started understanding the meaning of God’s grace.
I hit my knees and consciously gave my heart to the Lord when I was 23, married, with one child.
My faith continued to grow from there, and opportunities to serve became more visible and important to me. The Lord took my greatest fears and weaknesses, and had me use them for his purposes: in the church, in my career, and throughout all of my life. He always amazes me.
At the later stages of my career, as I spent the better part of 10 years working and living out of town, I realized how much I missed serving at my church and serving this community.
This tugging at my heart I believe was God’s way of moving me forward on my faith journey. This was one of the major motivators in my decision to retire early. God had blessed me with certain skills and knowledge, and provided the resources for me to move forward and serve His people according to His plan.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4: 6-7
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3: 5-6
But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; it’s leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.
Lord forgive us when we get consumed by the things of this world that fight for our love, and our passion. As our eyes are open wide and on you, grant us the privilege of your world view; and may your kingdom be, what wakes us up and lays us down.
TobyMac, Matthew West
Lebanon County Christian Ministries